Thursday, February 4, 2010

Thank You

I just want to take a moment to thank my awesome friends for your support and comments and advice. And for joining me in my excitement, frustration, sadness, etc. What goes on with my family is a bit difficult sometimes and I have never felt all that comfortable going to them with any challenges in my life. So, it's nice to have some wonderful friends who are there for me. I know I don't always show it and I know that most people don't say it often enough, so I want to be sure to clearly state it here. My friends mean a lot to me. Each and every one. There is so much kindness and love and laughter in my life because of you. I truly appreciate every single bit of it. Every moment. Thank you, even for the tiniest bit of kindness, the meekest smile or quietest hello you have ever shared. It has never gone unnoticed.

I am not someone who likes to get "mushy" and sometimes I pull away from the group. But let me say this. I read in a book last year, the insightful observation that sometimes those who are the least involved, have the most invested. It's that quiet guy sitting with his arms folded, slightly further away from everyone else during a meeting at work. Or that seemingly disinterested girl holding up the wall in the back of the room during emotional, personal moments at weddings and when new babies are welcomed and during big holiday gatherings. Sometimes these people aren't involved in what is going on because they care so much about what is going on. They have so much personally invested, therefore they have a lot to lose. And perhaps they have been burned before. Perhaps these people have tried speaking up and making a difference and joining the movement and getting attached.... but were badly burned or saw nothing ever come from their efforts and have decided that they can't get hurt that way again. The higher you climb, the harder you fall. Sometimes, it's necessary to practice a little self-preservation and hang on to a lower rung on the emotional ladder of life. Just please remember this the next time you encounter someone who seems disinterested....

Sometimes those who are the least involved, have the most invested!


  1. Hi sweetie. I've not often been vocal, but I've been following along, watching your story and your experiences as they happen. I've been here, even if in the background. :)

  2. I sort of wanted to say what she said, but she said it first :) I really, really miss you.